Tuesday, July 29, 2008

Monday Mood

This was the best Monday I've had in a while. I had several surprises, and oh how I love surprises.
The first surprise left me speechless. It will bring closure to an area of my life that has been left open (for lack of a better description)...I can now freely walk through the open door without being trapped on the outside looking in. Talk about a stress reliever. Whew!

The second surprise was a house full of laughter and friends for dinner...some expected, others not...hence the surprise! What joy to have a home that friends feel welcome to just show up for a meal anytime. What joy to have such freedom in friendships! It was great to sit around after the meal and just visit and talk without feeling rushed...not something we do enough of in this fast paced world.

The other surprise was that as the adults talked and the children played, the teenager of the group cleaned up the entire mess...without being asked!!! She did it to give us time to visit and to make my evening easier.

A great Monday!

Thank you Father for the great gifts...all good gifts come from you and you really blessed me on this day. You blessed me beyond expectation. Help me savor this day, this delightful Monday that soothed my unsettled soul.

Saturday, July 26, 2008

Here are two of my wordle images. Lots of fun to play with the colors and fonts. The first one is titled "Help" the second is "Boggling". You can click on the image to make it bigger. Very interesting to see my thoughts in this word picture.


I had just figured out how to get a signature on my post when I deleted the original Sonderella so I decided to test my memory and computer savvy (a term I use very loosely)....here it is!

Let's see how it works.

Thursday, July 24, 2008

Thirsty Thursday

This week I am thirsty for purity of mind.

I realized today that I have been consumed with thoughts so ugly I wouldn't admit them to another living soul.

The negative thoughts ran through my mind like children playing on a playground. I shouted with glee as I soared on the swing of bitterness. From that thought I rushed to the tallest slide to climb and climbed to the top of my self pity, confused by the painful joy as I slid down into a pit of despair.

This morning during my quiet time I searched my heart. I realized that I was very thirsty for purity of mind. Thirsty for the ability to stop such terrible thoughts. My thought life has been reeking havoc on all areas of my life.

I usually don't have time to check my email before work but this morning I just felt like I should. Wouldn't you know it, God sent me an email! He did it using Lynn's computer. It was just what I needed and confirmed my feelings of conviction during quiet time.

Thanks Lynn for taking time to put it all in writing. While you may feel frumpy and be grumpy b/c you are turning 50, you have wisdom that only comes from living for so many years.

OK friends, what are you thirsty for this week?

Monday, July 21, 2008

Monday Mood

Can I just bury my head until Erin is oh, maybe 30? Parenting is not an easy job. I just want to love her and enjoy her, yet I find myself frustrated with discipline issues, happiness issues...I don't know how to do this!
I feel so out of sorts with adjustments in crazy candy and not really dealing well with life in general currently, so I realize I am not the best parenting model. Will life ever feel normal again?
Maybe I need parenting...any takers?

Sunday, July 20, 2008

Self Help Sunday

This is a picture taken in Manhattan, NY. I cracked up when I saw it. The lady who took it and posted it on her blog lives in NY and has a self help blog. I enjoyed reading it...hmm what does that say about me?

Is there such a thing as self help? I have pondered this and realize that for me the only real help comes from God. I am helpless to "fix" myself. In church this morning the pastor spoke of a supernatural help in tough situations, the help and healing and forgiveness that can only come from God.

Yes, I can do healthy things...pray,walk, read my Bible, eat well, attend church, seek wise counsel, seek good support, quiet time,laugh daily...to keep my mind and body healthy, but only God can heal a broken spirit. Only God can keep us tender through the hurts.

So, self help yourself...seek God.

Friday, July 18, 2008

Funny Friday

This evening I took Mom out to eat and to Wal-Mart (the only place locally with scooters)...pretty much the last thing on my mind for a rainy Friday night after a stressful day at work. I decided to get my mind right and just enjoy this time with my mother. It is not often she has the chance to get out and go, especially not for her favorite food...fried oysters. So, I got my attitude adjusted and decided to cherish this time with her.

Dinner was good and greasy...great to sit and watch the rain...although there was that trip to the bathroom with her. No details but I felt badly for her (fears of not making it to the bathroom, poor thing) and so I became more determined to make the most of it.

At Wal-mart we "fought" the crowds with smiling faces. Mom was enjoying herself so much. She had her little pocket book attached to the scooter handles and was just grinning with delight as she asked where different items were. As I led her to the different sections I tried to be careful to not hit anyone as I kept my eyes on her (she knocked down a soda display a few years ago). It was a sight to see...this overgrown, toothless child striking panic in the hearts of Hispanic mothers all through the store. She was very careful, didn't hit anyone, but she would say "Excuse me, can I get through? I don't want to run over you and hurt you." Then as the non English speaking mothers tried to gather their children to their sides mom would stop to talk to them. "Aren't you cute? I wouldn't want to hurt you. Have I made it past you?" The mothers pulled their children closer. I wonder if they were thinking "oh my gosh, what is this woman saying? Why has she stopped? What is she going to do to my children? Where are her teeth???...well at least she can't bite me." Hopefully the moms could see love in her gummy grin and smiling eyes.

This is what I was pondering as I took my late evening walk (dusk). As I rounded the corner near my house I was giggling to myself as I recalled the funny events of the evening. Thinking how embarrassing she can be at times and hoping I didn't turn into her when I'm old. At this point I saw Matt running down the hill. Wow, I thought, he must really want to get away from that birthday party. His pace is really fast...he shouldn't start that fast, he'll never hold up with that speed in the beginning. I decided to be silly and slow him down. I went running towards him with my arms open wide...slow motion like you see in the movies...Chariots of Fire theme playing in my head...he started to cross the street. Oh no you don't Matt...I crossed the street to grab him. Yep, you guessed it. Not Matt. A young little teenage boy (no wonder he was so fast). I quickly explained myself.

Who am I kidding...I have already become my mother at 38.

Thursday, July 17, 2008

Wednesday, July 16, 2008

Sonderella Take 2

Here goes...another run. The picture may or may not reflect my mental state. Um, to be honest, mostly it does.